Audition/No Audition

Today’s audition ended up being an hour-long exercise in futility. I was supposed to be a replacement for another actress who couldn’t make her audition. But when I got there, I was not scheduled and therefore was unable to audition (not my agent’s fault).

Tomorrow, I have another audition; this time, I have to memorize the copy, which is making me inordinately nervous. I’m also nerve-wracked because, for some reason, I’ve been feeling as if I’ve lost my chops. I’m not trusting my acting skills. I’m afraid I’ll be flat, detached.

I think that’s a sign that I need to return to scene study.